Now Art Journals are many things to many people, but to me my Art Journal is the place I go to create without barriers, where I remove all my "should's" and "have to's" and I just create from my heart. It is private, it is personal and I don't usually share... because for me there is NO wrong way in my Art Journal. I remove all the internal pressure to "make it pretty" and I allow only me and my inner guide to "speak". I work on instinct, I try not to think and I go wherever my inner guide leads me without trying to question her too much. (I am actually practicing creating without questioning her at all - but baby steps!)
My Art Journal is also a way to allow my inner voice - my angel voice - my God voice to direct me, because, you see, I don't actually have an Inside-my-head voice - I think in pictures. No, Really! Inside my head I see an unending stream of photos and when I speak out loud what I am doing is trying to find words for those images. That's why, sometimes, I seem a wee bit distracted when I am talking, or there is a long pause as I try to find words to fit the images, or I talk REALLY fast because I am trying to keep up with the movie playing in my head. (TMI?) No, I am not crazy! Just Different. (Grin)
But when I discovered Art Journaling I also discovered a way to allow my inner self to speak to me in a language I could understand. And for me, each step in the process of creating a journal page, beginning with applying the base color and ending with doodling in pen to finish off the page, is a conversation with my Inner Guide or Art Muse or God.
So I just want you to know that making the decision to share this page with you was/is scary and personal and REAL and I had to work very hard at remaining true to myself and my process and to not worry if what I was creating was pretty enough. I had to throw some pretty hard punches to get that inner critic to stop bugging me! (Smiling here)
But as I created these pages Spoke To Me and I realized that I have created a cage made of Fear around my Artistic Voice. Fear of failure, fear of criticism, fear of not being Good Enough, just plain old unfounded FEAR.
And then I realized that sharing this page with all of you was a way to overcome that FEAR and was a necessary part of my Journey on my path of Making ART For Me. And that I have to stop holding myself back, questioning my instincts and second guessing what Other People want or will say. I need to Just Create from my inner artistic heart and soul.
And the final lesson was realizing that actually I Have All The Power. It really is up to me what I do, what I don't do and what I share... So I am Doing THIS and Sharing THIS!
As always thank you for popping in to see what I am up to and please do leave me a comment if you like what you see!
Artistic Scrapbook Lynne Mizera
for the Susan Weckesser Creative Team
Susan Weckesser Products used on this project:
|Bouquet Card Stock|
|At Ground Level Unity Stamps|
|Autumn Grunge Unity Stamps|